Beautiful Pains

It’s been a little over seven months since I married the love of my life. So far I have vomited profusely, cried sporadically, gained thirty pounds and countless stretchmarks. Yayy. In case you haven’t guessed it – I’m pregnant.

Let me just start by saying how this time has elapsed nothing like I thought it would, I had every intention of being a blend of Martha Stewart, Claire Huxtable and a stripper. Unfortunately, nausea and fatigue made it very difficult do be the non-stop cooking, cleaning, sex vixen of perfection I wanted to be for my husband. Instead, I had these symptoms that under any other circumstance would indicate I am dying but in pregnancy they’re described as normal and I couldn’t see anything other than all that I was now incapable of doing the way I once did. As usual, Holy Spirit slips a lesson into this season of my life and as usual; I am going to share it with you beautiful people.

Here’s how it happened:

I was in bed one day, lamenting over the pelvic pain and swollen feet I had now become accustomed to. I was scrolling aimlessly through old photos and looked at one of my 9 year old daughter, I began to think back on all that I was facing during my first pregnancy with her. Truth be told, it was a terrible time but when she came – none of it even mattered at all.

There was never a day I resented my daughter because of what I experienced during the process of having her. It was painful, but the outcome was breathtaking. Looking at her gorgeous little face brings me nothing but joy. The pain of the process never supersedes the beauty of the promise. In that moment it hit me, that I wasn’t just aching, I was creating! My body itself is being used to produce a new living person the world has never seen and doesn’t know it needs yet. I am pregnant with a promise that when all I see are symptoms, God sees the outcome! Enduring these beautiful pains, allows the earth to roar with new possibilities and endless creativity.

You may not be physically pregnant like I am, but we all possess something unseen that the world doesn’t know it needs yet. What if Einstein stopped because of the pain of failure? What if Martin Luther King Jr. stopped because it was dangerous? What if Oprah stopped because she was rejected? What if Yeshuah stopped because 39 lashes hurt too much?

You will never know how much the world needs whats in you until you endure those beautiful pains and PUSH!!!!

Until next time,

Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing!

 

 

If you liked this post, you’ll love my book 100 Days of Singleness !!!

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The other daughter…

I’m the other daughter. I’m the one that didn’t happen to be born in the cocoon of a happy marriage as my other siblings and I underwent a much more complex developmental process.

I’m the “awkward situation” we dare not discuss, subject to statements like “Oh I didn’t know he had a daughter this old”. When they said the first would be last, I didn’t think this was what they meant. I felt last, out of place, insignificant and like an inconvenience my parents should have avoided.

I was wrong.

I had based my entire sense of self worth on this ideal of my father when I was younger, so when I met him… Reality paled in comparison. I’m thinking I had watched “Annie” one too many times and expected him to fall in love with me instantly then break into a rendition of ‘tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow, you’re only a day away’! Unfortunately that didn’t happen, but it would have been cool wouldn’t it?

I can give you statistics and I can divulge a slew of information regarding how many of us are “the other daughter” but it wouldn’t be very helpful. We don’t need statistics to show us what we experience everyday. Numbers just don’t matter when something is hurting you, statistics can’t calculate the pain of feeling rejected.

Here’s the bright side….
You don’t need anyone to value you, for you to be valuable.

When you serve the Lord and you surrender your heart to Him, there’s a peace that overtakes you that people can’t understand. Every pain you’ve felt, begins to have a purpose. You’re not defined by your past or your pain because of His promises.

Nobody, not even your parents have the right to devalue you either by word or deed. God already esteemed you and called you blessed! You were woven in purpose and are a testament of his love for humanity, because now the pain you’ve endured has made you so strong that you love so fearlessly… You change the world around you!

I’m the other daughter, a woman of purpose power and strength. I was predestined by God to be used as an instrument of His love, to share my story and impact the lives of broken women.

I am strong.
I am healed.
I am whole.

Who are you?

99 cent love

His love was cheap
Like a bright red sign that alluded to a great purchase only to leave you with a knockoff version of what you truly wanted
He spoke of a love that he couldn’t show
It was tender, caring and deceptive
It was a love that lent it’s kindness to a soul in need, but never rooted deep enough or long enough to spring forth new life
He gave me that 99 cent love
Just shy of a dollar and worth much less
I sought it with fervor and he dangled the misconception before me like that little black dress on the clearance rack that was just one size too small!
Stuck with the decision of leaving “good enough” behind never knowing if the perfect fit was out there
He gave that 99 cent love
Just shy of a dollar but worth much less
Good enough just wasn’t good enough for her anymore
She wanted the perfect fit.

So you think you’re the one?! (Day 37 – 100 Days of Singleness)

Most people LOVE the chase… A person will pursue you to the ends of the earth just for the thrill of the chase.

We have to be careful not to mistake persistence with destiny. Not everyone that desires you, deserves you.

A man that isn’t led by God should not be expected to lead you. A mate that serves God should be one thing you do not compromise on.
There will be LOTS of potential spouses that claim to be sent by God… Lots. God will give you the spirit of discernment and for the most part you can rely on your intuition.

God will not send a spouse that pulls you away from Him.

The problem is most people want a spouse that’s godly enough to be faithful to them but not godly enough to be faithful to God by remaining pure.

So. They think they’re the one huh? Pull back and observe until God gives you confirmation, you’ll be surprised at what the Spirit shows you about a seemingly great potential spouse.

Keep seeking God, let whoever is trying to get to you… Go through Him!

Love a little. Love a lot. Be a blessing!
– Shakeisha M.

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No more locked doors!!! – Pursuing Purity (Day 26 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I know he/ she is no good for me but…

Stop right there! Anything that follows this phrase is a sorry excuse of a reason to stay and you know it.

I know as the song says, “he ain’t no good but it feels so good”. I know and have experienced the pleasure of sin, so for all of us that have; let’s take a look at this:
Flee immorality. Every other sin that a man commits is outside the body, but the immoral man sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body. (1 Corinthians 6:18-20 NASB)

This is the first we have addressed sexual immorality, only because establishing relationship with God was paramount and of utmost importance. A part of committing to God is relinquishing our former ways that are displeasing to our savior.

We are connected to those we allow into our bodies, it’s more than a physical exchange of pleasure … It’s a spiritual fusing of spirits that was designated for marriage. We have to commit to purity, to living up to the standard of Christ. It doesn’t matter if you’ve had 1 or 1,000 partners! All that matters is repentance and seeking God’s deliverance from the sin itself and from those our souls are tied to! Sexual sins go against God and our own bodies and no matter how the media may portray it as some frivolous act, it’s not! It’s not to be taken lightly and we aren’t to be taking part in it outside of marriage.

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own?

Do you not know???

We cannot give our spirit to God and our bodies to the world. It won’t work.

We declare release from immorality! We come against the lust of this flesh and heed to the spirit of God and we WILL answer God’s call to holiness and be sustained by His Holy Spirit. We declare freedom! We declare holiness! In the name of Jesus!!!

God be with you always my loves and until next time;

Live a little, love a lot & be a blessing
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