I began with the intention of letting you all know how frustrated I was that God just was not speaking to me. But as I prayed before I started typing – He did.
“Lord I can’t hear you and I hate this feeling because it makes me feel as if I’m… desperate for you?”
All the Holy Spirit had to say was “good”and immediately I got it.
Sometimes we take the presence and voice of God for granted and He withdraws to rekindle our fire and to bring us to a place of desperation and longing.
I had to shut up – To hear Him
I had to seek Him – To Find Him
I had to get desperate – To understand that His desire for me is far greater than mine for Him.
Check out this song I just want to hear you by Deon Kipping, I swear the man is singing my life right now!!!
Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated. I don’t know what to do or how to do it, I love those moments. They remind me just how little I have to do with what God is doing in and through me. Those moments force me to face my humanity and His deity.
All I have encountered, remind me just how much I can conquer through my creator.